Have you realized that if you type "transsexual" into any search engine you will get a lot of hookup services and pornography? I think many do not bother, but it is strange if you are actually looking for information or a community because you feel you are different. I have been looking for ways to understand myself better, and hence I have been interested in studying the concept "transsexual" "transgender" etc. But I just find porn. "Want to fuck a transsexual?" - is the question that is addressed by commercial banners just as if thats what I am looking for. I think this illustrates that t… Lue lisää

There was a time when I was sure that I had to be nuts just because I secretly dressed in womens clothing. I do not think like that anymore. But still I can find a tiny tiny tiny voice in myself saying "you dont want that do you? You dont want to be an eye-catching disco-queen, you don't want to relax at a TG-club with a champagne on a saturday night!" .....But the answer is, usually, yes, yes I do ;) That voice does not have much control over me. But I think most of us girls have to put some effort into figuring things out for ourselves. At least I do.… Lue lisää

Hmm Hmm I am still so excited about being a woman in public, preferably on a tgirl friendly place. But God its hard. God it's scary. I need a good outfit, I need a new wig, I need comfortable underwear that also makes me feel hot. There is so much missing, materially of course, but also the courage. Dreaming of a place where you could just go and they provided you with everything and then you could just have fun. Yes, I am a bit insecure. I am not very insecure about my femininity, but I am scared what might happen If i bring it out in public. Otherwise, the easter might be a time… Lue lisää